*Triggering. I didn't know a lot about the army before I joined but, one thing I heard over and over again was that the drill sergeants were suppose to make your life at basic training a living hell. Being the only Hapa, I was targeted a lot. So I thought it was just normal the way I was being treated. I was what they called "the platoons lesson" any disciplinary action that happened was put on me so everyone would be kept in line. Unless they wanted the same punishment put on them. Eventually, a lot of the soldiers started to dislike me and treating me badly while the others just avoided me entirely. Then the soldiers who didn't like me started hiding my linens so I had nothing to sleep with at night, or they would always put on the worst details and they always messed up my locker during inspection so I would get in trouble. One day I was put on supply detail with a soldier I considered a friend, the supplies were in a warehouse separate from the bay, but when we got to the warehouse to get things ready for the platoon, The guy I was put on detail with hit me on the back of my head with the butstock of his m-16, Then him and two others held me down and had tape wrapped around my eyes and hands, then I was dragged to the back of the warehouse where they took turns sexually assaulting me. After they left me I just lied there for a while to recuperate. I started screaming and crying, I seriously thought I was going to die that night. I didn't tell anyone anything cause I felt ashamed. It wasn't until I got out of basic that I've said anything or tried to get help. I couldn't take the therapy the army was giving. It became an issue where every time I came back, it was a different person, a different person I had to tell my horrible story too. As a human being, I can't function the way I used too. I just feel damaged.