My whole life anxiety has prevented me from doing so many things I used to want to do. When I got anxiety under control I sadly became apathetic and didn't do much. Now I'm just depressed and hopeless. I suffer from a host of problems including OCD, depression, dissociative disorder, anxiety and panic, and now I'm suicidal. In our dog eat dog world I wonder what chance I really have out there? The sad thing I don't even have the will or motivation to do anything anymore. It all seems so pointless now. I don't feel like any direction I go in is going to lift my spirits or make me see things in a different light. If there were some purpose maybe I could justify sticking around. I envy those of you with families and kids cause there's at least a reason. I don't even have that. I just have me and my thoughts that lead me to ruin every day. Sometimes I feel like I'm just destined for suicide now.