I have picked christmas to be my last day. I really don't care anymore. The past week has been the worst and pushed me over the edge. My ex won't let me see my kids since I have to work christmas day and thats the day specified by the court. Then there's the fact I can afford to pay my bills let alone get shristmas presents, even though I work 2 jobs. Then the woman I was dating broke it off with me with the "I'm hung up on someone else" speech. I have nothing to offer anyone and no real reason to keep on living. I have stockpiled a bunch of pills and have written the letters. I hope it's my engine company that finds me, so they know what they did to me.