I took an overdose and left the house with the children playing happily downstairs and my husband asleep on the couch. I sent him a text message telling him that I want my eldest daughter to get the car and my 8 year old to live with her best friend, who's mother had already promised she would take her should anything happen to me. My 11 year old daughter heard the text come through and read it my 18 year old told her it was a suicide message. She ran out of the house screaming after me. I was at the other end of the street but I heard her screams. I ran and crossed the busy main road. I turned around and she had caught up and was nearly hit by a car crossing the road. She screamed in tears saying if I die she will kill herself too. She didn't know I had already taken the overdose. I didn't realise just how hard my kids would take my death. I knew it wouldn't be easy but I never thought they would be so messed up that they would hurt themselves. I had to live for her. I went to the hospital and I lived. I won't be attempting to kill myself again. The glimpse into how my children would suffer was a huge eye opener. Now I have to build trust again.. my kids are traumatised at the thought of losing me If you are a parent, please take my post as a warning. You will possibly be killing your children if you kill yourselves. I think this may need to be stickyed.