I am going bonkers soon... one moment you can see me crying the next moment you can see me laughing... Everybody hates me and every whisper to another party is about me. I can hear voices telling me I am a bitch and I am stupid and never amount to anything. No wonder your loved one left you. Nobody even want to be friends with me. I hurt people in my own pleasure, the quintessence of pain that is me. I hate myself so much. For being so incapable and messed up in the brains. Just like a profoundly retarded ****. This is me. This is how messed up I am. This is the me that I hate.