messed up

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by takencontrol, Sep 11, 2011.

  1. takencontrol

    takencontrol Well-Known Member

    i have really fucked up this time, nothing to do with alcohol or attempts, no, its much more heartbreaking than that. i feel so close to you, you are the one i should be with, you can give me the support i need and i you, i love you so much already and i shouldnt, i feel like ive known you all my life. im sorry baby xx
     
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Not sure what is happening hun can you tell us more i am sorry you feel so alone hugs
     
  3. takencontrol

    takencontrol Well-Known Member

    sorry its a rant and thinking out loud, things i need to say out loud and dont know how else to do it safely.
     
  4. Speedy

    Speedy Staff Alumni

    :hug:
     
  5. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    YOu keep ranting hun keep posting okay let it out hun don't hold it in hugs
     
  6. takencontrol

    takencontrol Well-Known Member

    someone has to help me with this.....
     
  7. Butterfly

    Butterfly Pokémon Master Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    Tell us whats going on hun
     
  8. takencontrol

    takencontrol Well-Known Member

    i wouldnt know where to start, sorry, its a really long story and its probably nothing.
     
  9. Butterfly

    Butterfly Pokémon Master Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    If its bothering you then it is not nothing.
     
  10. Speedy

    Speedy Staff Alumni

    I agree with Lexi. :hug:
     
  11. takencontrol

    takencontrol Well-Known Member

    if you read this baby, its not you its me, you mean so much to me. sorry this is complete gobbledygook to everyone, but i had to let it out.
     
  12. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    hugs to you hun remember take each day don't look to far ahead hugs
     
  13. takencontrol

    takencontrol Well-Known Member

    been up all night :( cant go to sleep till i sort my head out.
     
  14. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I know hun try to take warm bath okay listen to quiet music don't think anymore okay hugs
     
  15. takencontrol

    takencontrol Well-Known Member

    why do i do this to myself, always the only reason for me feeling this way is because of ME, im my own worst enemy, it needs to stop. fuck, fuck, i have let my head get out of control. im scared, scared of myself.
     
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  16. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    well i do understand being my own worst enemy hun you will be okay just take each day at a time hun hugs
     
  17. takencontrol

    takencontrol Well-Known Member

    well, 36 hrs and no sleep, my life just does not get any more complicated, honestly wtf. :sigh:
     
  18. jcat

    jcat Staff Alumni

    you need to talk to someone and soon. i dont want you hurting yourself for any reason. no alcohol either. :hug: