What can I say. Lives a bastard. It can even fizzle and dissolve every bond and structure that keeps are constructive sides progressing. Meh... when I can realize this, fuck you life, and I love you too Trying to find harmony in life, and myself.. a bastard seeing everything and having to... Position myself, and maintain it. Life's unforgiving sometimes, but .. Gotta keep going and not give up. Sometimes just understanding and being that is so difficult. Fending off the realism that nothing matters, or the points.. just so I can find what I've found, and re-energise it.. just so I can think straight and move a leg and a finger in the direction I believe.. Instead of the direction of utter destruction. Remembering to remember, to be. So many things are fizzeling. I just want to breathe like who and what I am. Maybe someday there'll be something constructive out of this. Gotta make that happen though I spose..