Right now I am awake and the thoughts of killing myself are running strong in my head. If I wasn't staying with friends I would be trying to method of killing myself right now. WTF do I have to live for. I am sad all the time and all I want to is cry and if I am not crying I am eating. I don't really know what else to do, I know that I am extremely sad and depressed and I don't want to live anymore.