My midterms are starting in two weeks. I am not worried for them at the moment. Though I am not studying at all and I fear I will fail in them. The fact that I am not worried about them sort of worries me?? I mean why don't I care about them... I was aiming to get really good grades to transfer to another university but those hopes have sinked in the ocean probably... uhh... Last year I had the motivation and I was able to study enjoying it but since second semester I absolutely can't study for long. And I don't enjoy it anymore. I don't know if I can take it for five more years (if I pass all my classes, if not college can last longer for me)... Sometimes I just wanna drop out but starting again.... I just don't have the energy for it.