Hi, I'll be completely honest, I never thought, in a million years I would be here. I've always been the person that other people lean on, with my unfaltering positive personality... or at least that's what my outward appearance looks like. On the inside, I'm terrified to admit that I may be slowly crumbling. I've suffered from severe migraines for as long as I can remember. I think I've tried absolutely every trick in the book, every medication with almost as bad side effects, but they just won't go away. This year has been horrendous for me, and for the past 3 or so months (it's been so long, I've just stopped counting), there has not been one day where I can't woken up with an aching pain in my head. You would think that, having dealt with this for so long, I would be able to persevere through it. I admit I thought the same thing. But some days, it's nearly impossible to function. I am unbelievably frustrated with how I just can't enjoy any of the activities I used to love. I've always been a straight A student (seriously, I've never gotten a B on any report card), but now I'm faced with Cs and Ds in every class, because I just can't keep up, especially with all the school I've missed due to these migraines. I've always set high standards for myself because I know I can do it, so it's so hard for me to not be in control of my life anymore! It seems like there's nothing I can do. I don't often complain to other people, because I see no point in it. Why put my burdens on someone else, when they can't do anything about it?? No one understands what it's like, always being in such pain. All they can do is nod their head or say sorry. I've stopped telling my parents as well, since I know it causes them so much stress. As much as they would like it, they don't have fairy dust either. So, I've kept all my emotions contained inside for years. People say this is a terrible thing to do, but I always feel so much worse after I tell someone how I'm feeling! I don't want them to worry about me, I'm sure they have their own issues! It seems like every time I speak, things get worse for everyone. Then why did I post here? Because I'm stuck at the bottom of a pit, and have no idea what else to do. As I mentioned before, I've always been such a strong, independent person. A year ago, I would have never imagined I'd be thinking about pulling the plug. But I don't know what's wrong with me. Why can't I just suck it up like I used to? I just feel so alone, my headaches are slowly eating me away. No one else sees the pain, because I'm always so conscious about making everyone else happy. I don't want to be a burden or upset people, but I also can't keep living my life like this. Maybe it would be better if I wasn't here, because then no one would have to waste their time and energy on me. But I guess the fact that I'm even posting here means that that's truly not what I want. What I really want, is for the migraines to go away so that I can get my life back together. But who knows if that will ever happen, so I'll just have to somehow find the strength to get out of bed in the mornings. Even if I get no responses, I guess I just needed to finally share my feelings with someone, since I can't do it anywhere else in "real life". Thanks for listening.