See it's been suggested a large amount of my problems are a clear mental disorder. I don't feel comfortable with that, I also don't feel comfortable with taking pills and basically being in "treatment" my entire life. But I'm considering at lest checking it out if it can improve my life and make me a bit more stable, but my biggest fear is that the pills will "change" me. Make me different, like I'll lose my edge or something. Right now I'm extremely self destructive, and most of what I do is "self medicating" to quote every friend/family/social worker I've talked too. So to cut to the chase, do your think medication has changed you in a inherit way? Was the change good? Is being with out said meds make you unable to function? I'm curious, if these questions make any feel uncomfortable, feel free to delete the thread.