I'm really annoyed at the moment. I seem to do better alone yet i can't stand BEING alone. Does that even make sense? Well anyways, some friends came back into my life today and it was like instant fighting between some of them and I can't handle how I always get thrown in the middle of it all. I mean seriously? I think we are all a little old for this shit. I love them all yet I want to pull my fucking hair out when I'm around them. D: ffs. AND I have court tomorrow because I'm stupid. I'm so scared about it and don't have the energy to deal with petty shit like this. I can't breathe with how scared I am and I want to fucking cut so bad. But i dont want to go to court with scars. They'll think I'm nuts and lock me away or something. Even if I AM nuts I dont want to be locked away.. So yeah.. I wanna hurt myself really bad right now.