Mini Rant

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by ~PinkElephants~, Feb 8, 2009.

  1. ~PinkElephants~

    ~PinkElephants~ Senior member

    I can't keep pretending things are okay between him and I. Quite honestly they are far from it. I care about him so much, but the truth is I don't see myself with him forever. I've tried making a clean break from him, but it's all too convenient that his father has gone back into the hospital the night I try to break up. How odd is that?? I just don't buy it and that's awful of me because if he is in the hospital I feel like the world's biggest asshole.

    It's hard to feel anything towards him because he makes me feel like I have to choose between my family and him. He doesn't understand that he'll lose every single time. There's no way in hell that I'd choose any guy over my nephew. I've raised Dylan since he was 1. Like I'd ever ever choose over him. People don't get that I've been his "mother" figure his whole life. They say they understand but when they see how strong the bond is they run. It's pathetic really. If you don't want to be a part of my life then don't. Stop pretending you understand because you have no idea.

    It's sad. I've invested 5 months of my time into this man and now I feel little to nothing. I mean I still care about him, but sexually/intimately it's gone. It hasn't been there for a long time honestly.

    It's just...how can I make a clean break when he keeps telling me that he wants to see me. I don't have the energy to explain that I can't keep doing this. It will slowly kill me. I can't see him tonight. I simply can't because I know what he'll try and I"m not having it. Not anymore.
     
  2. ~PinkElephants~

    ~PinkElephants~ Senior member

    We broke up. Come to find out he's a twotiming, lying, cheating mother fucker. Better to find out now then later. What a piece of shit! :sad::mad:
     
  3. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    Ding dong the arseholes dead :guitar:

    About bloody time too!
     
  4. Spearmint

    Spearmint Well-Known Member

    :arms: Kellz, better sooner rather than later, eh? Hope you feel better and find someone 983724723842x better than him. :hug:
     
  5. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Hey Kiana,
    I don't know you but felt like I should reply. You don't have to take that kind of shit off him. Write him off to experience. There are plenty of kind hearted guys out there and I have faith that you will find one. Take care of your self first, the rest will fall in line.Take care!!~Joseph~
     
  6. ~PinkElephants~

    ~PinkElephants~ Senior member

    Thanks everyone. I feel better...more angry then anything now. Not hurt or etc. I just feel like I wasted so much time and effort on a 0. Sucks but eh oh well