sometimes time really stretches out in front of me, and i'm overwhelmed by the sight of all those moments to be spent alone with myself. i can't even remember the last time i fell into the future without even realizing it, and saw the people and the places as they came. after my dad died i just sat back and started watching. i haven't been able to stop. how do you stop seeing death in everything? where is the peace in life? maybe if people just talked about death more, and how life really is fucking random and bizarre. that would help.