i am a miserable failure. i have zero confidence, i have not had a girlfriend in a year, i'm a VIRGIN at 17 years old (junior in high school), i have little to no social skills, i have troubles interacting with authority figures, and i am lazy. the only successful part of my whole life i guess is that i actually have some close friends, 3 to be exact. if i didn't have them, i can honestly say i would have killed myself by now. there is this girl that i've wanted to talk to since the middle of last school year. i see her every day, she's still available, and i just CAN'T talk to her. what the fuck is wrong with me?! even if i did talk to her, i doubt she'd be interested. she probably has goals, she's probably outgoing, etc. i will probably never lose my virginity and won't ever have another girlfriend again. i'll have a hard time functioning in college, i don't know if i could seriously handle a job, so seriously, why haven't i just offed myself yet? i'm useless and doomed. "why haven't i killed myself yet?" is the best question i've ever asked. i'm the biggest fucking waste of space in existence.