Today I'm sitting here thinking about not only missed opportunities in terms of where my life has taken a turn from where I thought it would go, (actually a lot of that was down to things I had no control over) but missed opportunities in terms of making friends in my "real life." I asked my girlfriend if adults actually do think back to let's say, one's crushes at school, people you were interested in and now you think "Why on earth didn't I act or just say something then before we took different turnings and now we'll never see each other again?" And it all boils down to insecurities, insecurities about if the person liked me. At this moment my social avenues are non-existent...there is no way I'd be able to cope with the stress of university at the moment and am currently spending my savings for university on therapy otherwise I just wouldn't be here.. Sometimes I feel horrified at the thought that I'll spend the rest of my life being hyper-wary of people, wasting opportunites that are down to personal insecurities and terrible self image and poor protection of myself (ie, not having a thicker skin, or able to perform or wear some kind of protective mask/barrier). In contrast to this, I do feel that I empty myself out to complete strangers (for example here) on the internet and this has very very bad consequences for me. Do you ever think back to people in your past, or people perhaps right now that you were/are too scared to approach? Or is it just me?