I dont particularly have triggers anymore. Just random moments where i miss it so much. And then it builds and it builds inside me like something is trying to get out. I have these mood dips im fine one minute then i could honestly just burst into tears the next. I dont even know why im posting. Its not like anyone can take it away. I keep coming baack to this thought, if i didnt have my boyfriend who has made it clear we are over if i start sh again.. What would i be like? I could self destruct at my leisuure and nobody would care or even notice.