I am really spun and my best buddy is not around. Besides being incredibly sweet he is very understanding and provides me incredible insight when I am too emotional...he grounds me and I so need him to help me with this "issue" I seem to be having. He deals with depression in his own life and has been having a rough time too. I have not been able to be there for him and I feel so terrible. I feel so selfish for wanting him now on top of feeling awful for not being there for him. If anyone has time to talk with me that would be great, I am really hurting right now and need to talk badly!! Thanks for any help guys, Bambi I woke at 4am spun in my head and am getting spun now that my day is drawing to a close and things are quieting down work wise. I still have two things to take care of but can't seem to focus as the thoughts are spinning in my head. What do you do when your best friend can't be found? Do you just talk to the walls? I feel so sad and wish he was around.