Ten years ago , the only parents I knew, my grandparents, died. They were so healthy, so active, I feel so cheated sometimes, I feel so lonely without them. My grandmother had cancer and had been living with cancer for about three years when my grandfather went to work and had a massive heart attack, after that my grandmother was so lost without him and she passed away 5 months later. It doesnt get any easier, I dont have contact with my real parents, my lonliness is so hard to deal with sometimes, like there is a big hole in my heart. The home of love and acceptance that I had when they were here is gone. I was reading in one of the other posts about someone looking for their loved one in other people and it is so true , Im always searching for my grandparents in other people but noone can love me and accept me the way the did, especially my grandmother, who I was especially close to , I will love her and miss her beautiful smile forever.