hi all. i don't necessarily need help. but i do need to talk. i lost my sister on valentine's day. my only sibling. she was my best friend. she was like every single good trait put into a single person. we did everything together. absolutely everything. you know how you can have soulmates other than in a romantic sense? yeah. i truly believe my sister was my soulmate. my heart was always so full around her and she made my life so much better. she was so proud of me for no reason. i am literally a mess yet she always found something in me that made her proud. every morning, she would wake me up by screaming then giving me forehead kisses. for the last two weeks i wouldn't let her because i was all moody and gross and stuff. but what would i give to simply just have her wake me up again. or laugh. or smile. we planned everything in our future together. i named all of her kids and she gave her youngest child my middle name. she meant so much to me. i am truly so empty. everything in me is gone. everything. i know, "she wouldn't want me to feel this way" ,but what other way can i feel? i've lost the biggest piece of me i think? my world has come to a stop but the world around me keeps going. i still have to work. i still have to do normal things but nothing will ever be normal again. i have never missed someone as much as i am missing her right now. i'll miss her forever. i loved her so much. anyway. yeah. that's all. thanks.