Why the fuck is it that everything i say is misinterpreted, and everything i do is misconstrued? im sick to death of being accused of doing or saying something wrong just because people get the wrong end of the stick. Is it my fault people misread messages, and make assumptions instead of asking or trying to understand a little better? Is it my fault people don't understand my actions or decisions? Is it my fault people are still yet to realise how to recognise what tone of voice i'm using?
I'm forced to feel like everything is MY fault, all of the time, regardless of whether it is or not, i could probably go out and get hit by a bus and the people around me would still say it was my fault or that i wanted it to happen, the ironic thing is that because of them, right now i DO want it
On top of everything else i'm made to feel guilty for having insecurities relating to my past, any time i need a bit of reassurance all i get is more grief and made to feel even worse, well i can't do this anymore. Each day i go through this i consider more and more ending it all, and even though people would probably STILL misunderstand and blame me, at least i wouldn't care anymore or be made to feel at fault, i need the release.
I dont need reminders, i already know im defective and should have been returned at birth
I'm forced to feel like everything is MY fault, all of the time, regardless of whether it is or not, i could probably go out and get hit by a bus and the people around me would still say it was my fault or that i wanted it to happen, the ironic thing is that because of them, right now i DO want it
On top of everything else i'm made to feel guilty for having insecurities relating to my past, any time i need a bit of reassurance all i get is more grief and made to feel even worse, well i can't do this anymore. Each day i go through this i consider more and more ending it all, and even though people would probably STILL misunderstand and blame me, at least i wouldn't care anymore or be made to feel at fault, i need the release.
I dont need reminders, i already know im defective and should have been returned at birth