My mom, who is utterly clueless to the collection of mental disorders I most likely have, is triggering me to no end. She's always been triggering to me, I just feel so terrible about it. She keeps making indirect comments about suicide, and I just find it so damn offensive! If my brother and her get to say it, why do I have to keep it all in? Why can't I get help? Why am I not worth sticking around for? It makes me so angry, depressed, and boderline-suicidal that they can do that and I cannot. I know this is a horrible attitude to approach this from, but I never said I was a great person. It's just that I've been reserving this for four years and haven't said a word for their convenience. My brother gets help, and I am denied it. Sorry for my ranting, just... Blerg.