Ok so I'm bulimic... Laxative abuser... :sad: :unsure:
Confided all in my GP yesterday as I felt it was the right thing to do, ok; but he says its not his problem and he cant help me until I'm drastically underweight or dying or something like this. But it is his problem though. right? I mean, its my health and he's the doctor, so...? :unsure:
Anyway, he is monitoring my weight, but he told me "oh-mi-gosh, you haven't lost any weight in two months...". Is this REALLY the thing to say to an ED patient - HELL NO!!!!! So my obvious reaction to this is to get completely crazy about having to lose weight DESPERATELY QUICKLY even if only to get some medical help for the ED.
Next, I dont understand bulimia... Why do we binge so, when we feel so fat? What is the reason for binge/purge, when it would be so much easier to starve? I guess it feels like you're hurting your body by bingeing... :unsure:
Next point, GP says my suicidality isnt his concern either and if I keep on attempting then its nobody's problem but mine... Well, yes kind of, but seeing as how my medication doesn't work (so I quit taking it which GP is perfectly happy about!!!!! ) then maybe from the depression medication point of view it IS his problem. :sad:
Lastly, do doctors know how bloody HARD it is to be so open about ED and suicidal things with them? Do they know how virtually impossible it is to even admit within yourself that you have a problem and need help, leave alone ASK for it? :sad:
mj
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Confided all in my GP yesterday as I felt it was the right thing to do, ok; but he says its not his problem and he cant help me until I'm drastically underweight or dying or something like this. But it is his problem though. right? I mean, its my health and he's the doctor, so...? :unsure:
Anyway, he is monitoring my weight, but he told me "oh-mi-gosh, you haven't lost any weight in two months...". Is this REALLY the thing to say to an ED patient - HELL NO!!!!! So my obvious reaction to this is to get completely crazy about having to lose weight DESPERATELY QUICKLY even if only to get some medical help for the ED.
Next, I dont understand bulimia... Why do we binge so, when we feel so fat? What is the reason for binge/purge, when it would be so much easier to starve? I guess it feels like you're hurting your body by bingeing... :unsure:
Next point, GP says my suicidality isnt his concern either and if I keep on attempting then its nobody's problem but mine... Well, yes kind of, but seeing as how my medication doesn't work (so I quit taking it which GP is perfectly happy about!!!!! ) then maybe from the depression medication point of view it IS his problem. :sad:
Lastly, do doctors know how bloody HARD it is to be so open about ED and suicidal things with them? Do they know how virtually impossible it is to even admit within yourself that you have a problem and need help, leave alone ASK for it? :sad:
mj
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