That's how I feel. If it's not one thing with me it's another. I get tired of aches and pains and this issue and then another issue. It's all stupid stuff. They want me to have minor surgery. Great! If I go and see about my back and neck I know they'll want to go in and do more surgery. I don't want that. I can't deal with getting over that on my own. I have to get a headstone. I've put it off for a long time but I feel it is time. However the thought of doing that sends me reeling and having to do that alone seems very large still. It has to be done though somehow. I keep thinking about not being here. Perhaps in a twisted way it helps me get through stuff. I keep having sleep issues. wtf already? Same thoughts and images go through my mind each night. It makes me very sad. Been having some flashback issues this week. It's funny t hey appear to come out of nowhere. But I know something is triggering them. Stress certainly doesn't help my body nor mind. Yes, def a moaner atm.