Mobid Fascinations...

Is it just me but when down do you think about other people that have committed suicide? I think about Cobain incessantly and Shannon Hoon ,who basically said fuck it and was reckless with the dosages and shit. I just can't stop thinking that they knew best....I don't know I guess I am pretty sick.

 

I've looked up videos about suicide, and the victims a few times when I was really down. Particularly the "Bullied to death" video. I don't know why.

 

Strangley enough....just reading about suicide made it better. That looks slightly fucked but yea :laugh:. But there are some really bad photos out there hmy:.

Also watching youtube videos or Dr phil clips about suicide and depression seems to help. I guess it's the whole discussion of things :dunno:.

It's waiting to 'get better' that's the hardest thing....:cry:

 

I'm the exact same way. In particular, with disasters and accidents that have occurred.

 

Well, when I'm down I have an even higher tendency to read about things like suicide and self harm and drug abuse. I'm not sure why. It triggers me a lot and is probably far from helpful, but I do it anyway.

 

I've had a look at gun suicide photos on the internet before and they aren't pretty. I was just curious at what the after effects of this would be. And after looking at them, I hope that no one ever considers doing this to themself.

 

I was in a terrible state just before Kurt Cobain shot himself and his shocking death tempted me to be a copy cat. I have had many mental images of getting out of this world B, it just comes down to wanting peace and not only when asleep. :unsure:

 

All the time.I think about why are they so lucky to get it right when i have tryed so many times and failed.So are you sick for thinking that way?I dont think so