I've decided I am going to <Mod Edit-Timeline> this existence, or what everyone tells me is existence. I have found everyone on this site very supportive and I would like to thank everyone for helping me through tough times. Enough is enough. I don't know who I am anymore, I don't know if I am real or who is real. I can't cope with the constant voices, lack of energy, depressed mood and not enjoying anything. I feel I am burden to people, especially my CPN. When I am gone those people wont have to worry anymore. They will be able to enjoy their lives and I will be free and peaceful. Thanks again everyone.