So I just had a moderate revelation. So I always run around talking about how relationships and having other people around is not something I need. But I am starting to think that this is complete and utter crap flying from my mouth. I mean really if this were the truth I would not really be trying to justify it so much, nor would I be thinking about it so much.
So I guess my point is that I should not be thinking about how I do not need others around so much. I am starting to think that me justifying why I hate other people and have no desire to have others around. So recently I have begun to think that this is just my loneliness escaping from me. Really when I make these posts I am generally really pissed off and sad. Generally loneliness is a negative emotion. But not one I am proud to admit. So instead I convert it to anger and bitterness and THEN let it all out. I mean why else would something like "Why I do not need people" be on my mind so much.
I don't know, but this makes sense to me. Does it make sense to anyone else?
So I guess my point is that I should not be thinking about how I do not need others around so much. I am starting to think that me justifying why I hate other people and have no desire to have others around. So recently I have begun to think that this is just my loneliness escaping from me. Really when I make these posts I am generally really pissed off and sad. Generally loneliness is a negative emotion. But not one I am proud to admit. So instead I convert it to anger and bitterness and THEN let it all out. I mean why else would something like "Why I do not need people" be on my mind so much.
I don't know, but this makes sense to me. Does it make sense to anyone else?