I was molested by my father as a child and for years told myself "It wasn't that bad" "It only happened a few times" "You need to just get over it". I thought I functioned fairly normally in life. I guess I never really did, saw a counselor for a time many years ago and felt like it confirmed that I WAS functioning normally. Now I am in a stable relationship, sober for 13 years, and my abuser is dead. All sorts of panic feelings and sexual problems in the marriage. I know I need to finally address and resolve this. I feel so alone and weak and helpless. I want to run from the only relationship that has ever been good b/c I don't want to face this. I want to be numb I want to stop. I just want to...stop.