Mom is gone for some day im i going to do it now??

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by black_angel, Apr 25, 2007.

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  1. black_angel

    black_angel Active Member

    Yes im going to do it now i think! I have been trying to take my life some times now but at this moment I can't find any other ways out from this. I have been trying to see my psychologist today but it didn't work, se doesn't understand me at all. I just want to find peace now from all this. I hate my life and I hate the world. Why do I live??

    Well i guess that I needed to just write that..
  2. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    Hang in there hun, it can't stay this bad forever and if one psychologist doesnt work for you, find one that does.
    Getting the right counsellor/therapist etc can be half the battle.
  3. meagainstme

    meagainstme Well-Known Member

    i didnt like my last psychiatrist so going to see a different one...its worth a shot you trying that yeh?

    and for the time being everyone on here will be happy to listen/help you. welcome to SF :)
  4. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    Welcome to SF hun :welcome:

    Also I would strongly suggest to find another psychologist. Sometimes a certain psych doesn't work for ya, you can try finding a new one then. Please do hang in there, it can only go up.

  5. corral

    corral Guest

    how old are you?
    whats bothering you?
    is your relationship with your mother close?

  6. You live because ( from my own personal experience) there is a tiny tiny bit inside of you that doesnt want to stop fighting, sure the bit that wants to die outweighs it buy alot, but it is still there. you have clearly been struggling for a while, and even if you have attempted, you've managed to get thorough this far, you can get through further. if you dont feel your psychologist understands you, ask about seeing someone else, as it clearly wont work otherwise.

    i no you want peace, but maybe there is another way out there

    take care sweetie, and hang on xx
  7. black_angel

    black_angel Active Member

    well it's like this...My mother and I are close now. We haven't been like this for ages..I have anorexia since 2 years back and when i was diagnosed my mother and i became close and now i don't want her to go away from me. Im scared that she will get hurt or something horrible. I have been to alot of psychologists but it doesn't work for me anymore.

    I have been trying ti change so many times now but they are just telling me that i will get better one day, I have been waiting for that day for a long time now and nothing happends..Im not going to take my life today because a friend called me and she needed my help and I want to do everything for my friends before I go away to another place.

    Long answer but hey what can I do ?! hope that i haven't bored you out or something..

  8. Cybrsk8r

    Cybrsk8r Well-Known Member


    The fact that you care about your freinds and you care about your Mom tells me that you're someone worth caring about. :hug:
  9. black_angel

    black_angel Active Member

    yes I want my mom to have the best she can get. Well I think that she would have it much easier without me....Im going to try to make the best of the situation..
  10. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    She's your mum, and she loves you. I'm sure she wouldn't want to lose you!
    :hug: :hug:
  11. black_angel

    black_angel Active Member

    she are telling me that she loves me and that she doesn't want to loose me for anything in the world but I can't stop this thoughts you know..They are here all the time...
  12. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    please do keep fighting them. The fact that you're here and posting and fighting it still, shows that you're a strong person.
    Please try to keep strong and keep posting here to get it off your chest, it might make you feel a little better.

    We're here to listen :hug:
  13. black_angel

    black_angel Active Member

    i almost did it last night........I took pills and cut my writs....Im not sure that i will survive this day, it hurts so much...
  14. mortdesinos

    mortdesinos Well-Known Member

    Dear Black Angel,

    Look, I have been having those thoughts too. I haven't been able to sleep at night, plagued by the concept that I don't belong in this world. But I am finally regaining hope and happiness. We all have our struggles. And struggling is beautiful in a way, because once you move on from whatever's bothering you (and you can move on,) life will only get better. And then, you'll hit another road block, but that's part of life, and once you get through that your life will be better again. How could we improve our lives if they were perfect? We wouldn't be able to. You seem very shooken up right now. I bet clearing your mind alone would allow you to be more optimistic. If you're procrastinating, try hard to get your work and errands done. Don't be hard on yourself if it takes you longer than it should. You're depressed. Also, change up your daily routine somehow. Try something new. Pay attention to things you don't usually worry about, which are not related to yourself. You'll feel better, I'm sure.

    I hope the weather isn't too bad there right now. It's pretty dreadful here.

  15. black_angel

    black_angel Active Member

    For about 2 hours ago I was thinking clear and I made the decision to live. Everything was good and nothing could go worng...Then someone called and asked after my father...How could they??? My dad is gone..
  16. Ampacity

    Ampacity Active Member

    I know how you feel. My grandfather and I where very close, i almost lived here.
    Now that he is gone, people such as telemarketers call and ask for him, although
    he has been gone for some time it does hurt.
  17. Ampacity

    Ampacity Active Member

    Just keep hanging in there, it will all get better. It did for me! :biggrin:
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