Mommy, I look at your facebook page and I feel at a complete loss. I need your help. I feel horrible, I miss you and I really really need your guidance. I can't stand being in the house and I can't focus enough to do anything for school. I'm so angry that you left but I know you are no longer in pain. I can't stand waiting for health insurance to go through so I can finally get help. I miss you so much. What am I going to do when Matt leaves? He and B have become my little family. Now he's going to be going far away and I'm stuck in the drafty house. I know its only has been a short time since you passed away. You died ten days after my birthday. The holidays sucked and so did your birthday. God, I miss you. I hope one day I can make you proud. I know I'm not doing it right now but one day I will.