Apparently I fail at social skills. Got reamed out by my boss for apparently being rude. Didn't even realize it. I'm probably *something*, Aspergers or ADHD or something, because I've mostly stumbled through my life getting into shit without really realizing it. Boss says a couple of co-workers complained about me, but those same people keep trying to socialize with me. It's frankly annoying. I'm perfectly at home being aloof if it means I can keep my job. Feels to me like I have a very low chance of getting my contract renewed, which means instead of getting half what I should be paid, I'll get nothing after seven years of undergrad + professional school. Up to my arse in debt as well. If I have to search for a job again I might as well drown myself. Good lord it was stressful last time. I sent out hundreds and hundreds of resumes. Why is it always a recession when I'm looking for work? [Yes, I've tried networking, no, it wasn't useful] Wife is unemployed as well. Nags me about having kids, but how can you even think about that when there's no hope? I should have ignored my parents and taken engineering or something so I could have a well-paying job with no debt. Why couldn't I have been just a few years older? Then it would have been a cakewalk to get a well-paying job where I can buy things that make me happy.