So... i was thinking about it today... And I realize how much money i spent comparing to my friends... Ciggarets, alcohol, clothes, stuff like computers, mobile phones... since i was small i always get what i wanted... my parents spent hundreds of euros every month to buy me stuff i want... Ironically, i never knew what was reason for my spending till today... I think that i try to replace emotions which I miss with material things... There is one thing that i never had... LOVE... Yes, my mother did love me and she still loves me very much... But others... expeccially girls... i was never loved by any of girl and i have never felt that somebody would love me except my parents and grandparents... And beleive me, its horrible to life without, if you ask me, most important thing... Anyone expirienced simmilar story?