Hi everyone, about a year ago my father passed away and left the house and my mother to take care of. My mother can't work because of a disability and she only gets 600$ or so a month to live on from SS. I am 20 years old and probably like most people at 20, I just wasn't ready for this kind of burden. At the time of my dads passing I had successful businesses online and made more money than most people and had around 100,000 in the bank. At the time i was doing very good for myself and everything looked like it was gonna be ok... Once the reality of my dad passing had really started to set in and when the economy started to slow down I just never really found myself. When my dad passed away its like my motivation to continue to succeed died with him. He was a good dad who always gave me crap about getting stuff done and alway pushed me to do better. My whole life my dad never really showed his emotions so he was kind of an ass to everyone but he was loved by everyone. A couple days before him passing he told me he was proud of me and happy that I was going to be able to take care of mom after he was gone. I was happy to finally hear him say he was proud of me and when he passed away it was like all motivation to succeed and continue to do good just went away. Every since then I just stopped bothering to work. I lost that spark of motivation that made me so successful in my online ventures. Soon my money started to run dry and no matter how hard i try i just cant get myself motivated to do anything anymore. I got 3 older siblings and none of them contribute nothing to me and my moms situation. They think because I make good money or use to make good money that I can handle it myself. I feel so mad and sad at the same time because of the hand i was delt in life. Being left with huge money problems and family problems. I feel sad because I told my dad everything would be fine and I would take over the house and look after my mom. I don't know what to do. Im 20 years old and I should be in college or something. This is when i should be living my life and no offense to my mother, I love her to death but I feel like my life is being thrown away because I have to look after her. I know it seems selfish but my mother is not an easy person to live with. She is pretty hateful and treats me like a 13 year old kid. I feel betrayed by my own siblings because they add nothing. One of them is about 10 years older than me just out of a divorce and all she cares about is living on her own basically trying to live like shes 20 years old again. If i even brought up the idea of my mom staying with her for awhile she would say no. She is very selfish and only cares about herself. My other sibling is pretty much the same but shes around my age. Its very frustrating that some how everyone thinks its my job to look after my mom and take care of her with nobody else chipping in to help. Im going broke and my job isn't getting any better. I owe thousands in debt just trying to keep us afloat and I don't know what to do. I need that motivational drive back in my life. I need to be alone. I need my life back. I don't care how selfish I sound... I just want my own life. I just want to start MY life already. I feel like im living someone elses life. I don't know what to do.