I'm becoming a monster. It started with lonesomeness. I have no friends, a small cold uncaring family, and a crappy deadend job where I'm treated like shit. I found a slight remedy to that through pornography. I started looking at < average, normal stuff, but it kept getting more and more extreme over the past 6 years. Its gotten to the point where I'm addicted to child pornography. I know its wrong, but its all I got left, its all that will satisfy my hunger. < Mod Edit Hazel: Triggering > I can sit there for hours, my computer asking me "Are you sure you want to delete this file?". After a few minutes I start to cry, I try to trick myself into clicking "Yes", and just stare at the screen until my computer goes into standby. Then finally I give up, open the file, and violate humanity. < Mod Edit Hazel > I'm completely out of ideas and only days away from ramming this quite < Mod Edit Hazel > into my heart, or being arrested for possession of child pornography. I'm becoming a monster and death seems like the only exit. Maybe some outside reasonings will help me change, if at least minimally enough for me to click "yes".