Hi, everyone. I'm a male, in my late teen to early 20 years. Sorry if this seems kind of out of the blue, but I guess I'll just say and it get it over with - I'm a pedophile. I've never hurt anyone. Never even tried. I've been left alone with children hundreds of times and never even considered acting on the horrible desires in my head. I've been struggling with this condition since I was an adolescent. It was when I began to realize it that my life, and my future, began to slowly grind to a halt. I've kept it hidden, hated myself, tortured myself, forced myself deep inside, isolating myself from everyone. I've tried to tell people, but the results were catastrophic, and luckily those were only online incidents that can't follow me. I have no one to talk to. I'm alone. I've become afraid of people, because I know that there is no place for a thing like me in this world. I've been considering suicide for years. I've never made a serious attempt, but I've engaged in almost every manner of self mutilation, from cutting to burning to hitting myself. Several people have also told me to get checked for asperger's syndrome and a few other physical illnesses that cause deprssion. Not to mention I've been single for pretty much my entire life (obviously), have no job, no prospects, and no future. But regardless, my main source of despair is my pedophilia, and lack of an ability to connect with people or form real relationships as a result. People have attacked me on forums before, and honestly, even though this is a forum that is supposed to help people, I see it being no different here. Even the most compassionate bleeding hearts don't hesitate to turn around and destroy what they view as a worthless monster. I'm the one exception to the "what you feel can't be a crime" idea. So I fully expect to be torn apart, again, and have to leave, like always. But I'll at least give it a try. Hello everyone.