I don't know whats going on.. My shrink put me on a new med and it took two months to get use to it.. Now it works great.. But I keep haveing these mood changes.. I take a med for them and it usually works..Maybe it's loneliness, I don't know.. I have made progress in some areas, and for the most part am feeling fairly stable.. But like right now, I woke up in a foul mood and just wish all this shit would just end..I'm at the point where I am getting tired of fighting it..If I ended it my family would get over it.. Hell they don't understand me. I tell them how I feel and all they ever say is I need to get off the meds and get my shit together..If I were to quit the meds I would already be dead, this I know!! I see my therapist every month and also feel I am sounding like a broken record to her.. She keeps telling me what to do,Thats fine and dandy but when I get home the lack of motivation takes over and I don't do it..I still isolate myself and she wants me to start doing volunteer work so I get use to being around people again..The thought of that scares the hell out of me..I have major trust issues when it comes to people..I freeze up and don't say anything. I look like a blooming idiot just standing there..I don't know what to do..I keep making changes and they don't help..WTF over!!