Hey, I'm bipolar and my mood is going down so bad. It's not completely down but it's slowly going down and I know that in the next month I will be completely on the floor with depression. I'm also feeling really weird. Two of my best friends invited me out for a couple of drinks tonight and we're really quite close but for some reason something felt off (this might be due to the depression though) and I'm feeling really quite paranoid about it. I got to the bar and they were there and they didn't say anything at all to me, no 'hi' or anything and didn't say anything to me for about ten minutes. I almost walked out. I know that this sounds silly but these are two of my bestest friends. I literally thought to myself 'Am I a ghost, am I invisible, have I been hit by a car?' and looked outside to see if a body was out there. I know how crazy that sounds but that's how weird it was. We started talking later but it almost seemed like I wasn't wanted there, yet they invited me out. You know when the smallest things seems to push you over?I guess I'm feeling a little shit too because a lot of my friends are going off to university in the next couple of weeks and I'm stuck here for another year. I was going to mention my bipolar to one of them (no one knows yet and I need to get it out) but I'm not sure if I can. I know this isn't much compared to a lot of people's problems on here but I still feel like shit.