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More addiction urges...

Princess Tiffany

Formerly known as Lark
#1
Hey everyone. I've talked about my pornography addiction in other threads before, but this time I'm in a bit of a tougher situation.
For those who don't know, I gave up pornography more than a year ago, vowing never to look at it again. Well, I recently learned that getting rid of it would prove even more problematic, especially for a 17-year-old with a high sex drive. I did some negotiating with my parents, and we agreed on a middle ground: if I'm able to do responsibilities for 3 months, e.g. cleaning the bird's cage, cleaning my room, etc. then I will be allowed to use it again occasionally. It's a reasonable goal, but I'm starting to show signs of withdrawal, and since it's so accessible to me (I have a school computer that doesn't have any blocked websites for some reason,) it's driving me insane. I find myself in the middle of class wanting to leave the zoom meeting and go upstairs to look at porn. The only thing stopping me is the thoughts of consequences, which sounds like a good thing, but it just adds to the conflicting thoughts and feelings.
I'm leaving for spring vacation in two days, which I'm excited about, but I feel like I won't be able to satisfy my sex drive in any way, like masturbation (which I'm allowed to do, just not allowed to look at pornography at the moment.)
I can't say I'm feeling suicidal at this moment, but my mind is completely cluttered and I can't focus on school.
So is there anything I can do to push these thoughts and feelings aside? Or get rid of them completely? Or is there other advice that could help me out? Thank you.
 
#2
Have you already tried online-porn addiction websites?
I have a school computer that doesn't have any blocked websites for some reason
You might want to get your parents' help in blocking the websites. Creating a barrier between yourself and your addiction may be the only way to break it.

Doing a meditation or qi gong practice might help give you greater control over your mind and sexual energy.

These links might be helpful to you:
https://www.suicideforum.com/commun...-worlds-second-largest-medical-system.166815/

https://www.suicideforum.com/community/threads/self-treatment-and-miscellaneous.166817/

Avoiding sugar and sweets, caffeine, and alcohol may help. Eating cooked apple, banana, celery, and barley (not necessarily together) may help too.

Acupuncture and Chinese herbal medicine may be worth a try. An acupuncturist's advice about diet, meditation, and qi gong may be better than mine.

I hope something can help.
 

Princess Tiffany

Formerly known as Lark
#3
Have you already tried online-porn addiction websites?

You might want to get your parents' help in blocking the websites. Creating a barrier between yourself and your addiction may be the only way to break it.

Doing a meditation or qi gong practice might help give you greater control over your mind and sexual energy.

These links might be helpful to you:
https://www.suicideforum.com/commun...-worlds-second-largest-medical-system.166815/

https://www.suicideforum.com/community/threads/self-treatment-and-miscellaneous.166817/

Avoiding sugar and sweets, caffeine, and alcohol may help. Eating cooked apple, banana, celery, and barley (not necessarily together) may help too.

Acupuncture and Chinese herbal medicine may be worth a try. An acupuncturist's advice about diet, meditation, and qi gong may be better than mine.

I hope something can help.
I have not used a porn addiction website before... I've always been reluctant to do so because of my age (I went to a sex addict anonymous meeting once and I wasn't allowed to do it again because I was too young,) but I suppose I will look for one.
 

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