Well, Ive had a crap month. I've been in intensive care three times since the end of july, the most recent time being the worst. Went in with a GCS of 3 and had severe liver and kidney failure. Was ventilated and put on life support and was in absolute hell, physically and psychologically, when i woke up. Since I came out of hospital on sunday the hospital admitted to getting my treatment wrong and not knowing what was wrong for two days. I've had a diarohea and vomiting bug since i got out and had to go back in on fri for rehydration because my sodium was so low. It has been absolute hell. I have put my family and friends through so much, i feel so guilty and so awful. My mum burst out crying in the middle of dinner last night, screaming that she couldnt take anymore. I cant keep doing this to them. They look so awful and tired, i need to take control of myself and make things better because im tearing my family apart. And I did scare myself this time. When they first took the tube out and i woke up in ITU, i had no idea where i was and was terrified, i just sobbed and sobbed and pulled all my lines out. Never again. And now I have irreversible damage. Dont let this happen to you. its awful, i cant believe what ive done and I wish I had never ever done what i did.