I need to let go. I need to just break down and cry and scream and break some things and bang some things against walls and hurt and cry and scream more and go on a bloody rampage. I know this. But I can't. I'm so scared to let go. Tears keep forming but I keep pushing them back. Its so hard on my own. And I know its all building, as they say - something's gotta give. The SH has been much more wreckless than previously. so what - eh? So fucking what. :censored: Something is coming, its got to. This can't go on.