Today is a new day and yet I still feel the same as I have been the past couple of days. Sometimes I wonder if I will forever be suicidal. I feel so crazy and I can't stop crying no matter what I do. I can't seem to care about anything right now and I have things to do for school, I just can't focus. I feel like such a loser and so pathetic, wondering why I can't just be happy. There are times where I feel so lonely even when surrounded by other people.