The mornings have been really hard for me. I often cry when waking up. The days I exercise in the morning have been pretty good because that's a distraction but a lot of the time I wake up feeling sad. There's been a lot of recent developments and realizations that have forced me to have to change major aspects of my life (mostly career) and I'm struggling with what to do next because I didn't expect this to happen. Also this year has been absolute shit worldwide and it's hard to even make those kinds of changes right now with everything being closed or reduced hours/in person and all. So I just feel like right now I'm on a lifeboat in the middle of the ocean just trying to hang on but every day that passes makes me wonder if I really am going to make it.