Man this sucks, I'm sure y'all know- have heard it before. My life's in shambles right now, lost my job, losing my apartment, my fuckin mom's probably going to go to jail; the shit's stacking up higher and higher. I've got no where to turn to. I think all hope's left me, the prospects for the future seem bleak, and the appeal of struggling onward just seems too unbearable. Man, I wish no one had to feel this way. Tthis shit sucks man. Sucks. Sucks . Sucks. I don't know anymore, wasting my potential for a pursuit that seems fruitless, and nothing seems to be paying off. No money to take care of myself, smoking cigarettes again. Where am I gonna go after this? I don't have a place to stay, no one to rely on... just tired of the uphill struggle. Atleast my bro'll get some money from this. Too many things to worry about. All this shit's just collapsing around me. Running out of days man, I'm spent. I can't fight anymore. More than fifteen years of constant struggle and it seems like that's the only fate for me, ever since I was a little kid. Man what a terrible existence. Sorry if I sound whiny. I've thought about it before, killing myself, but I just have never felt this close to it. Damn, my friends would shit if they knew how close I was.