I'm a coward, why is life is a burden? I'm always the guy out of my friends that will get the girls but not keep them. Read my username.. I know I can do well in school but I'm a lazy shit, I can't study.. I fear that for all of the potential that I have.. I won't do well on Leaving.. I won't get the good job, or the nice house with a family and kids, something I and millions others don't have, but they get on with their life, why can I not brace the storm and dictate my own life I'm 16 years old and I'm staring at 2 paths, I can change my life but I can't. There is no God, No hope or a higher power.. I want to kill myself but I don't have acess to quick and painless methods.. FML.