Hi, I'm 18 and I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder but my mother won't believe it or accept it, and I'm almost afraid that she never will do. I'm off to the doctors in the next month to sort out some meds, but I don't want to go because I'm a little scared and I don't want to go alone. I can't take her though, and none of my friends know. My father doesn't, but I'd rather it be that way. I've ordered some books for my mother about coping with a bipolar family member but I'm not sure if she'll actually read them. I just want her to accept my disorder and she just won't and I really need her to, more than anyone. I want to tell my friends but I'm afraid they might react in the same way, but it's her that I want to understand the most. She thinks its silly, and I told her about ordering the books and she thought that was silly too because she doesn't believe that I can be bipolar. This is really tearing me up now.