fucken hell , every fucken year i deal with this day ... it kills me that much more every year ... i miss my boy like no one could imgaine , the pain of lossing ur child b4 they even make it into the world its horrible , and to know that it was partly my fault as it was ... FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK im so angry and messed up one min im crying next im punching shit , next i have a smile on my face and everythings "fine" god i miss u boy ... Jaysen i love u wee man :cry: