I have recently went to live across the country for one month, I have been here for three weeks and have one more week left here. It was definitely a change of environment for me. At first i liked it, all the little things about this place that are different from where i am. but after two weeks there were so many triggers, and i had a crisis where i felt like attempting suicide or like self harming. Luckily i was able to be talked down. The reason why i went into crisis was because i was feeling worse here than I did back home. I felt that I do not fit in anywhere and that it is going to be like that anywhere i go, i was feeling hopeless thinking that it does not matter where i go, the same problems arise, the same thing that i was dealing with back home. I don't feel like there is any place for me, to feel comfortable and it does not help that i feel like everyone dislikes me or has something against me. I am leaving in a week and I can honestly say that I can't wait to get home. The living situation was always awkward here from the start. And I just am feeling really home sick and uncomfortable here. And I am also still feeling depressed. This depression follows me everywhere i go, interfering with my thoughts and emotions, making my social anxiety and major depression worse.