I just moved another couple of hundred miles to another town for my job. This time I am in a big city, which is so incredibly foreign to me. Growing up in small towns, this city is overwhelming. I dont know anyone, have no friends, no family anywhere near me. I thought moving here would help me get my life in order, but I am even more lonely and even more depressed. Heck, its worse now, even with the medicine the doctors gave me for depression. They changed it because the old meds were making me stay up, no sleeping, and feeling like a zombie. I havnt been taking these new meds long, but damn it, I am feeling so incredibly LONELY! WOW!!! I just dont know what to say! I guess that it hit home that I am such an ugly guy, and that most women dont even want to go on a date with me. I know my psych (woman doctor) told me that I am not ugly and that I will in time find that special woman in my life, but I just dont know if I even care anymore to live long enough to find that special person. ARRRGGGHHH!