I’m sick of my life. I’m sick of everything. My mom thinks that she owns me, that my time belongs to her. When she says jump, I’m not even allowed to ask “How high?” I just have to do it. She tells me that I’m going here or there with her, and even if I don’t want to, she makes me. If I tell her that I don’t really want to go, she gets completely pissed off and has an attitude. I could be tired from working a week straight, and I still have to go places with her. If I tell her I’m tired, she just throws back “Well I’m tired too.” But she’s the one that wants to fucking go!!! If I asked her to take me somewhere right after she gets off work, she gets pissed and yells that she’s fuckin’ tired, that she just worked all day. I feel like I have no life beyond what my family wants. This shit isn’t normal. I’m always expected to be the bigger person, I’m expected to give and give and give even if the person doesn’t give a shit about my giving. I’m told to keep in contract with someone who doesn’t want to keep in contract with me, and I end up feeling like a fool -- and it’s all because my family pushes these things on me. They can turn me down when I need something, and then in the next breath ask me for a favor. It’s all a bunch of bullshit, and I can’t take it anymore. I’m only here to be their fuckin’ slave, their servant -- and I can’t take this anymore. I’m nobody, I don’t matter. I’m so fuckin ready to cut, all I need is the opportunity.