Murder by Haunting

Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by FoundAndLost1, Nov 25, 2006.

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  1. Someone who appeared to me, seemed to care for me, when I was in great and dire need ended up dispappearing and letting me down - in fact causing a nervous breakdown - it was THE last STRAW that I could bear during impossible times. He shocked me by sending me an email yesterday and it brings back awful memories of what I've had to endure then, and since then. I wrote this for him, but I think I will not send it. Hardly even worth the effort of posting it here. But words ar all I have left...

    * * *
    My soul is in deep winter
    Let death enter
    There is no life
    It lies asleep as dead for all I know
    There is no hope
    I am weary beyond words
    You stole my very last spring
    You were my everything
    when I had nothing else,
    no other wealth
    No strength left,
    you let me bereft
    You gave and took away
    the very last, the very last of my being,
    not listening, not seeing
    Even from far way
    you looked into my soul
    Do you know how that kept me whole
    while falling to pieces?
    Do you know what you stole?
    When all else was taken away
    I relied on each word you’d say
    but you left,
    and I’ve died a thousand deaths;
    Walked miles through hell
    With or without you
    Is your world so damned ~
    So is my own
    You remember me just as you have forgotten,
    and once-upon-a-time write me again.
    What you do to me now, no matter what we had
    is a sin
    You have killed me
    with your lack of vision

    FAL1 (thanks for reading)
  2. sudut

    sudut Well-Known Member

    lost and found,
    humans all make mistakes. nobody is perfect. maybe they had issues of thier own; but good to know that you survived and you never let someone else's shortcomings (carelessness) influence your feelings and or actions. never give anyone that power. thanks.
  3. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Love the poem:smile: , hate the reason for its becoming.:sad:

    I like what sudut said, "never give anyone that power". That's hard to do when we fall so hard for someone. (as my sister describes it: "honey you feel for him like an egg from a tall chicken!":wink: ) But having given anyone that power, it can also be taken away. If YOU gave that power, then YOU can take it away. Wash your hands of him forever. Use emotional bleach - that kills any living thing!:rolleyes:

    You are so damn good at expressing your/our feelings, girl!:smile: :smile: :smile:


  4. You invited my shattered soul
    into your life,
    even if we only did write
    You let Me matter
    and made me feel whole
    But then, what you stole
    made the former,
    worse than the latter…
    Why did you let go
    when I was already gone,
    when hope was illusive,
    when I already had none.
    Last edited: Nov 27, 2006
  5. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Love your poem :heart:
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